Monday, April 13, 2015

The leading cause of yoga Injury is Doing /yoga/: Moving into ((You))


    In ((Yoga)), you do not move your body.  You move into your body.  What’s the difference?  To say, “it’s the difference between night and day” will not suffice.  But what holds a starker contrast than night and day, you ask? Black and White? Up and Down?  Imagine that all those paired opposites are married.  “Don’t think negatively!  Think Positively!”  Still married. 

    Think of it this way.  There is a part of you “choosing” all day long what to do or not do.  “I  choose to have a smoothie this morning.” “I’m going to take a different route to work today.” “I’m choosing to do the dishes.” We’re “choosing” all the time.  But that choice between “right and left” is not the level of choice I’m talking about. 

    There is another level of choice that is much deeper and much more indicative of a human being exercising free will.  This is the choice to be.  The choice to stop.  The choice to feel.  The choice to remember.  It’s the difference between ((Being)) and /doing/.  I sometimes call this kind of /doing/… /auto pilot/ (marked with single brackets to indicate the more machine like, black and white, either/or logic we are used to).  Because in a huge way it is a kind of predetermined mode of living where one goes through the motions but yet is not fully present.

    We all have had the experience of saying or hearing, upon the standard /auto pilot/ greeting, “how are you”, and responding with countless variations of “eh, hanging in there”…”Just another day, ya know!”…or the all too familiar /auto pilot/ utterance of the the answer “good, how are you” which rings of a kind of mechanical call and response.  The evidence is glaring, we go through our days able to go through the motions but without the authenticity factor that is characteristic of a Human… Being. 

    But we all carry on with it because it is safe.  Familiar.  No one seems to mind… so… “whatever.”  Then maybe… just maybe… in a brush with death or some other earth shattering even that forces one out of /auto pilot/ we stop and think, “man I shoulda _____.”  Fill in the blank… but I bet it feels more authentic! 

    Stated plainly and starkly, we’re /alive/ but not ((Living)).  We know this.  There are certainly times in which we all grant ourselves permission to be present fully but as part of our /auto pilot/ programming it always requires some external circumstance in order for us to give ourselves the green light to be ((Present)) the way we are meant to be always.  Like say it’s surfing a giant wave for you.  Or maybe it’s the act of making passionate Love with someone.  Or maybe it’s happy hour.  Or maybe it’s the Game.  Or maybe it’s being with your child.  What are the circumstances which you give permission to give you permission to Be? 

    The choice is not on the level of, “what am I going to order off the menu for lunch today.”  Cause in a way, your choice is already predetermined by the laws of cause and effect and you are not actually exercising your free will.  The ((Real Choice)) is on the level of “/auto pilot/  on or off.”  Call a spade a spade… the normal default mode of life across the board is /auto pilot on/!  Just face it!  Then you can start exercising your free will to turn it off.  How?



    When you start to notice how your life is basically one knee jerk reaction after another based on the deep conditioning we all endured growing up in our given culture, you begin to gain the awesome power of observation.  In order to observe oneself, one must be present… one must stop… one must have the courage to witness instead of react.  This is the practice of yoga… on or off the mat. 

    I call this process of strengthening your abilities of sustained Presence, “Opting out.”  Every time you notice the knee jerk reaction (and at first, it’s non stop) you begin to exercise the choice to participate (again) in giving your life force energy to this mechanism of the mind which has control of your body, OR, quite simply… ((Not))… It’s the ((Not)) choice that is the “opting out” of being choiceless, which is /auto pilot/ (double brackets mark a higher kind of ((doing)) which is born of ((Presence)).  In other words  ((Not)) /doing/ is ((Doing)).  And that is the formula of ((Rehab)) for the masses.  It's like kicking the mother of all addictions.  It’s like going on strike.  And I hope you can already sense the power of ((opting out)).

    Everyone is looking for enlightenment like it’s a bunch of bells and whistles and fireworks and a ticker tape parade… (and the ability to levitate of course)  Meanwhile, it is the ever deepening, humble and quiet process of giving up the addiction and it has no need to call attention to itself.  The “reward” of opting out is the enLIGHTenment that is our natural and peaceful state of being which has only been corrupted and eclipsed by /auto pilot/.  Don’t let the /idea/ of what yoga or enlightenment are supposed to bring you block you from what it really is… Your True Natural State.


This is the first picture that pops up when you Google "enlightenment"...  I rest my case.

    So why is doing yoga the number one cause of yoga injury?  Because to /do yoga/ in
/auto pilot/ is the same practice that has already objectified the self and body.  And just because it looks like yoga (aka asanas etc.) doesn’t mean it is!  The way we talk about the body and
 /instruct/ the /body/ to /move/ into an /asana/ is the problem.  We are using an artificial technology of mind to address the most ((Real Thing)) in our lives… our ((Bodies)). 

    There’s the /body/, which is a construct of all the things we’ve been told about the body, the issues we inherited from our parents, ancestors, and culture, and the piecemeal, dissected anatomical medium that our schools and medicine have used to /talk about/ the body.  And then there’s the ((Body))!  This is the ((Actual Body))… the ((Real Thing)).  The Body that we have not even begun to truly understand because our normal modes of understanding themselves deny us true access to our ((Bodies)).

    And we use this same old tired technology of mind to move ourselves through /yoga/ practice.  We may gain strength and flexibility but we never gain ((Access).  Therefore, we are painfully impeded and prone to injury.  We are still /objectifying/ the ((body)).  And it’s the same thing that’s killing us.  So it’s not ((Yoga)) until we face this.  And it is not ((Life)) until we face this. 

    When we are moving through our yoga postures (in whatever sequence and whatever level), just as when we are moving through life, we can haul this piecemeal version of ourselves from pose to pose (appointment to appointment), which is the heart of all the undue stress and strain that leads to aging and disease, or we can continuously ((Encounter)) the moment which by its very nature happens to be continuously dismantling the very structure of the /auto pilot/ self that plagues our ((Real Self))… that is, if we can be brave enough to ((Opt Out)). 

    Most people don’t realize that when we even utter the word “body” we are instantaneously imposing an /artificial mental construction of the body/ which is by its very nature an imPOSEition on the ((Real Body)).  So when we are in a /yoga pose/ which is automatically transmitted by the instructor using the same piecemeal technology of describing the /pose/ as the sum of its /parts/ in sequential, compartmentalized, broken, and therefore un-((Yogic)) fashion… How the hell are we NOT going endure a brutal journey… or get a /yoga/ injury?!

    So what does opting out ((Look Like)) in ((Real Yoga))?  Simple. Just as I opened up with “…you do not move your body.  You move into your body…”  the difference is ((beyond))
/night/ and /day/!  The difference is /body/ and ((Body))…  /yoga/ and ((Yoga))…  /posture/ and ((Posture))… /life/ and ((Life)).  Hopefully by now you are beginning to sense the distinction. 

    One way I often open up this kind of space in class is to remind everyone that we are not trying to /do something/ to our /bodies/, which yields the tug-and-push, stretch-the-rubberband,
/get flexible/ experience that deters so many from coming back and injuring many that stay.  Rather, we are ((Feeling)) our ((Bodies)).  Which is an act of ((Presence)).  The ego can’t feel.  The ((Being)) feels.  Only the ((Being)) has access to the ((Human Being Body)).  Real Yoga is a continuous opting out of the familiar practices of /self objectification/ that we may gain ((True Access)) INTO our ((Body)).  ((Feeling)) is the gateway.  And suddenly, everything makes sense.






    In any given moment you are prioritizing and delegating your attention (aka life-force energy) based on your prioritization structure.  So if you place something like “getting flexible” at the top of your priorities your whole experience of yoga and body organize differently than when you place ((Feeling)) at the top of your priorities.  When you do this, it stops feeling like you are hauling yourself to or through yoga practice.  You stop /moving/ your /body/ and begin to ((Feel Into)) your ((Body))! Discovering a body you didn’t even know was waiting for you!

    Once you make this shift, EVERYTHING CHANGES!!!! I can’t emphasize that enough!  Just as one example, I have discovered that prioritizing ((Feeling)) the ((Body)) over the popularized /getting flexible/ lends itself to slowing down…  If even just a little.  Try it… you can’t slow down without having to become more present and feeling more.  Furthermore, it’s much easier to catch the insensitive /auto pilot/ tendencies before they kick in… and then ((Opt Out)).

    It is this simple practice that turns the ossified and hardened body (which, in a way, has become so in mere self-defense against the brutal, mechanical, insensitive /auto-pilot/)  into the ((Warm)) ((Receptive)) ((Sentient)) ((Intelligent)) ((Power House)) of ((Healing)) that ((She/He)) is meant to ((Be))! That’s ((Yoga)).  And that’s ((Life)).  Remember it’s not just something we do on the mat.  But in every moment of our lives.  How many things or people do you objectify (including and especially yourself) as you move through the world?     

    It’s the simplest thing in the whole world.   The challenge is in remembering.   As you begin to improve in “catching” the /auto pilot/ tendencies before they “grab the wheel”  you ((Open Up)) the space to ((Real Yoga)) where one gains ((Access)) to the ((Body)) and the ((Healing Begins)).  The choice is not, “should I do Hot Yoga or Kundalini today?” It’s also not, “should I do a yin class or a vinyasa class?”  Whatever class you /choose/… even if you choose no class at all… ((Choose Yoga)).  


Tuesday, January 20, 2015

The Yoga of... Running

This reflection is for anyone.  Even if you don't run.  In fact, you can replace the word "running" with any activity.  I happen to run and have progressed through many stages of it... including... well... not running at all... for long periods of time.   And why?  Because it was "infected."  The idea of running itself.


But how can an activity be infected?  By our thoughts about it.  Or the "lens" through which we perceive it.   This is where Yoga and Running have coincided in this interchangeable meditation on the Yoga of (insert activity here).  I've covered before at length how the idea of Yoga has itself been not only infected, but completely corrupted by a culture that uses the same dysfunctional technology of mind to "do yoga" that Yoga is intended to cure in the first place.  Go figure!



I won't go into it at length here.  But understand... that Yoga is not a physical exercise, but rather, an exercise of Presence... of Consciousness... of Awareness above all else!  Therefore... the activity at hand can quite literally be anything... So to reiterate... runner or not, this reflection is for you!  It is secondarily about running and therefore you runners will be able to relate to it even more.


The question is simple... "What is running?"   And one might respond, "Why would you even ask that question?... the answer is obvious!  But if you insist on an answer... it's well.. you know...it's kinda like walking...but ummm... ya know... faster... and uhhh... it's like an exercise thing... it's hard on your knees... hmm, let's see what else?... uhhhh."


Indeed the question is a simple one.  The answer... perhaps not so straight forward.  While there may be a definition in the dictionary for running (see below)... what is running really to you but the accumulation of ideas you have about running based on your direct experiences of running (or not) and the relationship you developed with the idea of running (pleasant or not)?  Really think about that for a moment.  If you take "running" (or any other activity)  at face value with no awareness of the involvement of your thoughts (or "lens") in your perception then do you really know what running is?  Are you really perceiving what running can be?



Say your friend says, "Hey!  I'm going for a run this afternoon along the river, wanna join me?" What is your response.  In those fleeting moments when you are forced to make a decision and answer your hopeful comrade... what runs through your mind?  If you say "Aw gee, not today... I'm... getting a pedicure."  was it because you imagined what it would be like and felt the resulting dread of having to feel how "out of shape" you might be while trying to keep up with your buddy?... did you suddenly get a flash back of grade school when you had to run the mile at gym class and you threw up your lunch on the 3rd lap?  Did you hear the faint echoes of someone who told you that running wrecks your knees?  Some combination?


Here's the truth... you have zero idea about what that experience of running is actually going to be even if you have the strongest conviction about it.  So did you respond to the actuality of the invitation to run... or did you recoil from the projected imagery of a "lens" that is unaware of its own existence?   This is a yogic question my friends.  The ability to step back and perceive the perceiver is not some esoteric thing... but rather, the simple act of remembering to see your seeing.  It's the next step in Human Evolution.


By "seeing" I'm really referring to the reality that shows up to you... that is real for you... and suggesting that it is a function of your lens.  This is usually automatic for most people.  That's what I mean when I say "we take things at face value."  So in this case... you hear "running" you make automatic associations about what that means without even realizing it and assume that your perception is truth.


Why is this so important to understand?  Because, if you are not aware that you have a choice in the act of perceiving, then essentially you are doing little more than running a predetermined program.  You're predictable.  And your life?...  Unvaried and stagnant.


Let's run an alternative scenario based on the same question... "Hey!  I'm going for a run this afternoon along the river, wanna join me?"  You see your idea about running... you feel an instant of hesitation and the pressure to respond... you've practiced yoga so you remember to see that you are indeed running an automatic program that may or may not actually be the reality of the experience you are being invited into by life itself.  You say... "Ya know... yeah!  Sure!  Why not?  What time?"  And you feel free.  If even with a little trepidation.



I feel I have to keep saying this.  This is not about running.  This is about Yoga.  Awareness.  Remembering.  What I'm asking you to see is that our mind's "OS" (if you want to call it that) is predictable.  It runs a program that in philosophy is simply referred to as "predication." Joining subjects and predicates to make sense.  We do it all the time.  Seems harmless enough.  But it is deceivingly pernicious... And it is the DNA of the everyday human being's thought process.  It's how we make sentences.  But not only that... it is how we perceive reality altogether.


Without an awareness of this, we take what appears to us, which is a function of our "lens," at face value and thereby unconsciously obstruct the direct experience of Reality (which cannot be predicated) by the distortion of our mind's OS (operating system).  So back to running.  What is it?  If we can talk all day about running (predicate about it) but yet we know that this technology of talking about Reality is not doing justice to Reality itself... we have to ask then, what is Real Running?  This is where it gets good!


Let me give you an example of how this applies to my experience with running.  I went through a relatively long period where I thought of running as an unpleasant experience to put yourself through.  After teaching yoga for a couple of years I started to understand the art of witnessing my own narrating of my experiences and how that effected my experience.  For example, being in a yoga posture and realizing that I did not need to force myself into flexibility (as I had automatically assumed was the name of the game) suddenly made the posture far more pleasant and spacious feeling.  I changed the narration (the lens) and my physical reality shifted.  hmmmm.

Rumi quote... (the word "every" is cut off)
I translated this over to my running experience and realized that what was plaguing me while running was not the running itself but the inner talk regarding running... Not just thinking about running.  But when I was actually running I started to observe "programs" that were running (no pun intended) in my mind that were changing the way I was relating to the activity... in real time!   For example I would feel pressure to run farther faster.  This was probably instilled during my "get to the finish line first or you are a worthless piece of shit" days... ya know, male egos... high school... you get the idea.



Allowing myself to see that narration going on in my head gave me the freedom to not have to push myself so hard when I was running.  In one afternoon's run I went from dreading running but doing it anyway... to actually looking forward to my next run as my body did not go into fight or flight at the mere mention of running.   One time... Huge change!  This is the power of real Yoga.   So I decided to play with this.  I realized that when I felt there was a goal to reach in a certain amount of time while I was running (and that this was generated by automatically agreeing that the value one derives from running is in being better than someone else), the quality of every stride was laden with a sense of struggle, striving, and an overall feeling of running out of energy.  It was inauthentic running. 


When I took off the pressure of trying to run a certain distance or to beat a certain time, I noticed the quality of my strides felt smoother, like there was less friction and impact... The nature of the running itself shifted from a "means to an end " kind of running to feeling like the running itself was its own reward.  I hope you receive the impact of this!  Without seeing my inner talk about the activity I was like a slave to an artificial version of running.  I wasn't present.  My whole mental structure was blocking me from being present. But as I could let go of the "getting there" program, I was allowed to be Here... which is where running blossomed for me.  That's why I say that Yoga is the art/science of Presence.  Presence is Awareness... Being... Reality.


I agreed to let myself stop running and just walk if I started to cramp or feel overly uncomfortable in my body.  I would never do that before because I agreed that that was called "being weak."  But once I spotted that, I could see that it was just bad logic and therefore do away with it by giving myself permission to stop and stroll at any time... in honor of my highly intelligent body.  And here's the real kicker... I didn't necessarily go slower when I gave up on getting there faster.  In fact at times I would feel like the wind was in my sales and I wasn't working to run at all, yet still flying and going faster than when I was trying to.  I even played with imagining that the Earth could feel my feet hitting the ground which made me hyper-conscious of the quality of every step.  In other words, running started opening up for me like I never had thought possible.  


In my yoga experiment, the empirical evidence I gathered through the direct experience of these shifts I describe, I began to see the power of bringing yogic awareness into my activities to, in essence, liberate them from their "dormant" and even stagnant confines generated by my previously automatic perceptions thereby changing the physical Reality of the activity.  In this case, my running went from feeling like work, heavy, hard on my body, and just plain something I had to get through to feeling like a pleasure, nourishing, fun, energizing, easier on my body, something I look forward to... I could go on and on.  But I hope you get the point here.  That experience of running was waiting to be experienced but I literally could not access it without stepping back and perceiving my perceiving itself.



Recognizing the false overlay of inauthentic predication like "If I slow down, I'm giving up" and the like, allowed me to no longer act on them due to seeing their inherently bogus logic!  Once this happens, I can begin experiencing Running like an artist experiences a blank canvas.  And that's Real Running.  That's the Yoga of Running. 













Friday, October 24, 2014

How To Save a Yoga Pose

    The insight I shall henceforth imparteth to thee will completely change the way you experience your Yoga practice… Should thou feeleth receptive…eth.  Without the simple awareness I am sharing, which is like opening the exit door of an extremely small stuffy room, your practice will remain relatively limited, even if you do get impressively pretzely in that tiny room. 

    When yoga postures were created, the yogis who endowed us with the incredible physical postures we’ve grown to love (or hate) were not being told what to do… by a person.  They were not focused on doing postures at all.  They were focused on “listening” with their whole beings directly to the intelligent field of awareness which informs all things.  They were focused on the Source of all yoga postures.  They were focused on Yoga.  Huh?

    Yes, I know I’ve said it countless times before, but it needs to be said again because we are up against the momentum of copious amounts of people, studios, and teachers over decades who are convinced that yoga is stretching.  Yoga is NOT stretching gosh durnit!  In fact, you can’t DO yoga at all! Yoga does YOU!  It’s like when we say “I had an orgasm” in actuality, you didn’t have and orgasm… the orgasm had you!  That’s what orgasm is… the momentary surrender of the familiar, yet stifling, "little" self (ego) which then allows you to open up to the bliss of Life which is always orgasming with or without your consent… In this, everything is flipped from our normal perception of being a person having experiences to a person being experienced by something infinitely bigger!  Which is bliss… if even for a few seconds.  ahem…


    Well, just like you can’t fake orgasm… you can’t fake Yoga…asm.  Yoga is meant to be the practice of (what I would call) “Sourcing”.  Or you could call it the practice of Surrender.  The practice of Awareness.  The practice of aligning to the Source of everything!  And whatever it is that you might be doing physically… You can practice Yoga (capital “Y”).  But like everything else in our culture we have downsized the size-less into a technique, methodology, and system.  Then we practice the system as opposed to accessing the Source from which the system was originally birthed in order to allow us to gain access to the Source again.  That’s what I mean by “Sourcing.”  But we ain’t doin’ it.  Why kids?  “BECAUSE YOU CAN’T DO IT” (little kid voices).  That’s right kids!

    It’s the same reason so many are rejecting religion.  It has become obvious that the religions we worship have departed so far from their sacred roots (Source Teachers and Source Teachings) and become suffocatingly fundamentalist (aka. dogma) and even violent, that we react (Naturally) with the rejection of the religion (if even naively).  And as with so many of the world’s AMAZING Wisdom, the baby is thrown out with the bathwater!  We gave away the Wisdom to the ones who eclipsed it's amazing gift to humanity.  Not unlike children rebelling against their parents but shooting themselves in the foot.  Yoga in our culture is like this too.  Many are rejecting what Yoga is not (Thinking that's what yoga is).  But then they don't get to experience what Yoga actually is...

    So you proud pretzels out there may not like me very much for saying it (you’ve worked very hard at being able to perform such impressive physical feats), but what we call “yoga” has indeed defaulted into the same category of eclipsed Wisdom.  Meanwhile, those of you who have been down on yourselves for “not having the discipline” or "will power" to brave a yoga class can finally lose that discouraging inner critique and see that perhaps you have actually been true to yourself, even if you didn’t know why.  Cause what we’re calling yoga on a mass scale… Sorry folks… is far too often the opposite. 

    Hence, the intention behind this blog...  You may be getting a good exercise in your local yoga class.  And you may even feel good afterwards.  And I’m not putting that down.  It’s perfect, for what it is.  But I’m trying to save Yoga from “exercise yoga” without giving up the postures.  I want you to understand the difference between yoga postures as we know them versus Yoga Postures as they are meant to be.  We are used to yoga postures being precise forms which we must learn how to do “correctly” in order to feel we are proper yogis… or at the very least, pleasing the teacher.  These kinds of yoga poses, unless done in the right awareness, are im-POSE-itions.  To DO yoga postures in an egoic state of mind is, to put it bluntly, posture-ing. 


    Think of the process.  The teacher uses words to describe where to put what.  For example, “Step your right foot forward and bend your knee to 90 degrees.  Reach your hands to the sky and put them together. Drop your shoulders, engage mula banda, and try not to fart.”  With pained, or at least, very serious looking faces, the very well-intentioned and earnest students take the rather technical sounding verbiage in through their ears,  and generate a kind of piecemeal mental visual of what the posture is "supposed" to look like.  Either that, or they see that one chick who always rolls her mat out in the front of the room beautifully executing virabadrasana with ray of heavenly light showering down upon her perfect form while a choir of angels softly serenades her ascension into yoga heaven.

    Then they take all that in and tell their bodies to “match” the visual generated in their minds, which may or may not be something their body is ready for, and anxiously wait for the teacher to call the next pose while they breathe like something akin to a person braving constipation.  But hey, that’s the best we got right?  I know… that is a gross generalization.  But you can relate to it right!?  What is universal in what I’m describing are the mechanisms we use for “teaching yoga” which is to say, teaching postures.  And the effect is not pretty. Yet because we can endure it, it slips past the radar and we keep on doing it.  And the term "yoga injury" is, meanwhile, climbing the charts!

    Step one.  Be honest with yourself.  Just because you can endure a yoga posture does not make it good!  But can you admit that to yourself in the moment when you are waiting for the posture to be over?  If you answered “yes,” please proceed to the next level.  If you answered “no,” your honesty is exemplary… please proceed to the next level.

    Once you admit to yourself that you are suffering the moment, you can see the mechanism that puts that in place.  The egoic drive to perform, you might call it.  Now, ego sounds like a harsh word, but it is really the best word for the mental construct of the "self" we generate from birth and identify with as who we are.  So when I say “ego”… it’s not like some kind of insult from which you need defend yourself.  It’s totally normal.  We all do it… all the time.

    We think, “I’m going to do this pose because I want to get flexible because being flexible is better than being… not flexible.  I’m going to do this pose with all my might even though my body is screaming because I have the will power to endure it and then I will be proud of who I am cause I can say ‘I did that.’ ”  That’s ego. 

    Yoga is defined as the quieting of the ego mind.  If your ego is running the show and you don’t even know it… you’re screwed… by none other than you!  Through being honest with yourself about how you are really feeling in the moment, you can begin to identify when you are imPOSEing your ego agenda on your body.  Since we have established that that is not only NOT yoga… But it is the OPPOSITE of yoga, we can opt out of that insanity and begin using the postures as they are meant to be used…. not as finite destinations, but as fractal pathways into Source.  

    I’m using the word “fractal” as that which the ego mind, in all its linearity, cannot comprehend.  Like when someone says, “I can’t wrap my head around it” I always say, “good!”  Cause that’s the the point.  That’s Yoga.  It is the unwrapping of your ego head so that you can finally open your Mind to Source Yoga.  I’m not putting down the yoga poses.  In fact I use many of them as tools in my class.  But I am also aware that they are not destinations, or shapes that I want to cram my students into.  I treat them as “portals of exploration” or offerings through which my happy students can feel free to…well…. FEEL! 

    I must “unpack” the power of feeling in another blog… it is such an amazing topic.  But in short, feeling is rad!  It’s the whole point.  The ego yoga posture is perpetuating our anesthetized state (which is the result of ego minding in the first place) and it is not helping us.  If we really want to experience Yoga (not do yoga as an ego), we must remember that we are feeling!  And we must also understand that feeling is direct information from the Source… From the field.  It’s how we communicate with our physical body.  And it is how we communicate with our physical body not as a finite separate unit, but rather, as an “interface” with the Source.

    If you ever thought, “God, I wish my body could talk to me!”  it is!…. all the time… And when you know it, you stop imposing your ego-based yoga poses on your body and start making Yoga Pose Offerings.  You start to listen to the feedback of your body and you begin a dialogue which otherwise could not unfold within the rigid confines of technical ego yoga. 

    Your breath will inform you as well.  “Constipation breath” is a swell indication that ego agendas are running.  You’ve put the cart before the horse again.  The horse in this case is the ability to feel… which goes hand in hand with listening, honoring your body, deep breathing etc.

          Back to Fractal.  A fractal is typically associated with a curve or geometric figure that repeats itself at smaller and smaller (or bigger and bigger) levels infinitely…  Like everything in nature and in our universe.  Our postures should not create an experience of contraction and isolation from the fractal nature of reality.  Rather, it should be an opportunity to join the dance of the cosmos.  It should be an opportunity to let the orgasm have us!

    The difference is in the question… who is doing it?  The ego with its superficial linear agendas, or the Yoga self, let’s call it, who humbly surrenders the ego drives to allow the sacred unfolding of their non-finite (infinite) body in an ever-deepening communion with the whole?  It has to be the latter... or it is just not yoga.  SO… what I’m saying could quite possibly put me on the international yoga hitlist!  Because you can’t get around it.  Most of the yoga (little “y”) being practiced out there is blocking Yoga, albeit innocently.  It’s just a fact.  And we need to gain the literacy of what Yoga actually is in order to truly activate our well-intentioned efforts to teach it.  Period.

    In the meantime, whatever your studio or teachers might be up to.  You can take what I’m sharing here and begin to liberate your yoga practice with every breath and every posture. 

Be honest with yourself… Are you pushing?  Are you waiting?  Are you enduring?  If the answer is yes, ease up and identify the ego agenda that’s running. 


• Treat the posture as an offering… not a goal! 

• Prioritize feeling… NOT performing!

• Celebrate that you can feel and you will feel even more! 

• Slow down so you don’t miss the “whispers” of your tissues!

• Prioritize your relaxed breath and sacrifice it for nothing.  If you commit to this, you will not be able to impose!

• Discover the “fractal pose” by surrendering the obsession with adhering to the rigid linear shape of the technical posture. 

This allows us to explore freely and unleash the Living yoga posture which is dynamic and evolving rather than static, fixed and therefore rigid and unnatural feeling.  

Enjoy!  It’s just the beginning!


Written by Näthan Gangadean © 2014

   

   
   

   

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Infinite Right Ways

    It's time to stop looking at yoga as something you DO on a MAT.  In fact it's time to stop looking AT yoga and begin seeing FROM Yoga.  Yoga is the ultimate field of unifying intelligence that, by its very nature, heals us from fragmentation on all levels!  Yoga means Union. The ultimate yoga is the yoga of thought! This awareness of thought at the most profound level brings Yoga (Union) to our lives by directly addressing the heart of our deepest suffering on the level of Being itself.  So come with me on a journey through the science of liberating yourself through Yoga, From Yoga, AS Yoga!


       'Infinite right ways' could be taken a lot of ways.  What do I mean by that?  Well, to give a snap shot, many of us trip ourselves up and even experience downright paralysis in life by thinking there is only one right way for life to go.  When life obviously proves again and again that it is unpredictable, surprising, and infinitely out of our ego's control!  There are always contingencies!  In every realm of our lives.  The reality in which we live is characterized by total unpredictability (That's why we have insurance isn't it?)  So when we are experiencing things like regret, disappointment, guilt, shame, blame, or even just find ourselves complaining (we can agree that all of these emotions basically suck, and that they do not yield any results beyond their inherent suckyness), we have an opportunity to see a different choice and proceed in our lives with a kind of lighthearted confidence and forgiveness that only frees us up to be even more successful and happy in our lives... quicker.  After all, the negative emotions mentioned above get in the way, slow us down, and are not productive. 
I can admit it.  I have spent much time with each of these emotions.  One little instant of complaining may seem harmless or at worst irritating to listen to.  But imagine all the little moments in which we latch on to these emotions of non-acceptance of what is (Such as, "Dammit! Why does this always happen!?!"  When something isn't going right.) and you'd have accumulated so much wasted time and energy which could have otherwise be spent living the life you want.  Which, ironically, is the reason you are complaining.  Because things aren't going like you think they SHOULD!  And that is the point of this blog.  Empowering ourselves to instantaneously re-chart our course in every single moment until our nature is to be in continuous celebration of Reality's Awesome, Fun, Amusing, Surprising, Spontaneous, infinitely intelligent Nature!  It's as plain as day once you see it.  But until you call it out for its absurdity, the tendency to unconsciously deflect our infinite blessings remains a permanent installation in your home, polluting the space, draining energy and contributing nothing... kinda like a bad room mate.  But you have a choice.  You can evict these thought forms simply by starving them out.  But you have to see them first.  And understand what is really going on.  Otherwise you'll keep feeding them and making them strong...essentially, screwing yourself! ;)

  
       In the instant of choosing (which is every moment all day long) many folks don’t realize that they are not just choosing to do one thing or the other.  We are also choosing to reiterate the thought patterns in our minds, constructive or destructive, which have all been instilled in us through a lifetime of conditioning to view reality in a certain way.  To not realize this level of our creative power is to deny our most essential freedom.  Many of these mental ‘programs’ (I like to call them) are detrimental to our well being as individuals and as a whole and are based in a logic that creates an  experience of being removed from Nature itself.  Which is to say, corrupt, unsustainable and prone to disintegration.  So if we are suffering much of the time due to this most fundamental and unsustainable practice of life, how do we gain the ultimate freedom∞happiness which we long for on the deepest level?


    So many of us (one might dare to say nearly EVERY one of us on planet Earth) are addressing the unpleasant symptoms of this malpractice, such as the myriad physical, mental, and even environmental illnesses and the countless ways they manifest in our lives, and never realizing that there is a deep underlying root cause to all of them.  So just like you may take a prescription drug to treat an unpleasant symptom while not curing the root cause of the disease, you may learn to cope with the existential suffering that is commonplace while still not being genuinely happy, or you can get right to the root of it and be nothing short of the ultimate healer unto yourself! (Remember... you ARE Yoga!  The ultimate healing unifying power of consciousness itself!)


    I will dare to say that physical illnesses, while seemingly happenstance and based on random environmental circumstances or hereditary susceptibilities, are also based in a fundamental disharmony with the wholeness of nature.  When I refer to nature, I’m not just referring to the outdoors, or mother nature and the environment, though it is an embodiment of what I’m referring to. 
Rather, Nature is another word for the Universe... the whole of reality, created and uncreated, physical and non physical,   conceptual and incarnate, and infinite.   And there is a law-like flow to Nature.  There is an inborn ethic of wholeness, which is the inescapable and the obvious fundamental substance of reality.  To me, this is easy to agree upon as how can anything be outside of everything?  Just to meditate upon the very concept of ‘everything’ requires one to perceive from a kind of omnipresent vantage point that is by its very nature infinite.  This is what I refer to as Nature... Wholeness... Oneness.... Consciousness... Yoga.


    Now one may argue that there are no inherent ethics of nature∞reality and that we as humans create them, and make them convention by practice and cooperation.  However, that same person would be hard pressed to deny that killing someone, for example,  is not okay by any stretch of the imagination.  Or perhaps abusing a child to choose another obvious one.  But how do we know, and with such fierce conviction, that such acts are unacceptable?  It comes from the inborn ethics of Nature.  When we stray from this fundamental Law of oneness, you might call it, it hurts.   When we hurt another being, we are hurting ourselves.   In other words, there is a level of self conduct and life making that is beyond the realm of opinion, which many hold to be at the crux of reality itself.  In other words, many believe that when you get down to it, reality is just what you make of it.  ‘So lets all just get along.’  This is not working... obviously.  And the human suffering on this planet is as pervasive as ever. 


    As I stated above, physical illness and disease (dis-Ease) is the natural progression of long term disharmony with the flow of nature.  But we must go deeper than this.  Think of the human body as an aspect of Nature that is continuously in dialogue with the whole.  Just the way we take unhealthy shifts in the environment as indications of imbalance (disharmony) in the greater ecology, so too can we take a disease of the body as an alarm, if you will, indicating a fundamental disharmony at some substructural level to, or more essential level than, the symptoms themselves.  We boggle our minds to figure out the causes of such disorders from the same fragmented logic that precipitated such results, and are naturally overwhelmed and daunted by the seemingly endless physical factors that play a role in the human body all while we completely ignore how thought patterns affect our physical bodies and therefore how our misused consciousness leads to disharmony in our bodies.  Through scientific observation and countless studies we have identified many tendencies of the body’s behavior and accumulated volumes of compartmentalized information, and we do our best from there to figure it out solutions when Nature itself is NOT compartmentalized.


    Deeper still... Look at the word ‘compartmentalize’.  Com-part-MENTAL-ize.  And for me, this is a big A-ha!!  We create compartments on a mental level.  While this allows us to discuss the occurrences of the body and nature in neat little packages, the reality is, it is a mental overlay on top of a non-compartmentalized reality (see below picture).  Indeed it’s a human generated imposition on the infinitely interconnected, interwoven fabric of Reality∞Nature which overwhelms the linear calculating power of the compartmentalized mind.  This does not only impede our ability to address the body, mind, and environment from a holistic vantage point, but is the very cause of the DIS-Ease that is the physical culmination of such unsustainable fragmenting practices in the ceaseless self narration of our lives and culture.  The mode of narration itself, based in separation from the field of union (yoga), creates the opposite of ease... DIS-ease... Stress.  We have grown accustomed to this stress.  Like a nagging, underlying hum of anxiety slowly eating away at us.  No wonder our society is extremely unhealthy and obsessed with consumption and distraction!  We shouldn't be mean about it.  We're genuinely hurting inside.  We want to feel good.  We just don't have the science yet of understand the root of our suffering. 


     And this leads us back to the opening of this unconventional exposé.  In every moment, we are not just choosing our actions.  We are also choosing our thoughts.  But will you also consider that you are primarily choosing, at an even more fundamental and habitual level, the mode itself in which you are thinking?  For simplicity sake let’s name two modes of thinking.  Compartmentalized thinking and Holistic thinking.  The difference between the two is obvious and yet it’s very easy to miss the magnitude of the implications of each chosen mode.  So for now I will say that compartmentalized thinking  creates dis-ease... and holistic thinking generates wellness.  Let’s agree that every action we take reinforces the fundamental practice which shapes our experience of life in every way either in a fragmenting way or in an integral, coherent, and holistic way. I also want you to consider that every thought you entertain has an instantaneous bodily counterpart.  Every thought you entertain (give attention to) has a reaction in the body.  This is always felt, and often goes unnoticed.  And these two aspects of self, mind and
body, are in a continual dialogue, each responding to the other.  To say that this process is taken for granted would be an enormous understatement!  In fact, this level of our reality making process (the creation of all our experiences in our dialogue with everything we perceive to be outside of ourselves) is completely automatic for most human beings.  And just like gravity.  It’s always there.  So we forget about it.  But then, if you are not choosing consciously the very mode of thinking∞being which determines the nature of events and choices that follow, then are you really free?  Are you really choosing?



    One way to think of this is that it is analogous to your computer.  Imagine that you are running an operating system that is way out of date, slow, unable to process with very much power, and prone to crashing.  Also imagine that there is an operating system with far greater computing power than what you are currently running, yet you are unaware of its availability.  You are making do with this operating system and it causes a lot of grief due to its unevolved technology.  Part of the problem with this older technology is that it is linear in it’s computing power and unable to multitask and process multiple programs simultaneously.  The new technology on the other hand provides tremendous computing power and somehow able to run many different tasks at once with high efficiency.


    You may already sense that I’m drawing closer to making and analogy to the human mind.  The linear and compartmentalizing mode of thought which we inherit from the world around us is proving to be unsustainable and impractical on every level of human existence, not to mention entirely outdated!  While the breakdowns are appearing everywhere we still haven’t gotten hip to the fact that it is due to the operating system we’re using at ground floor of our thinking.  Meanwhile, an incredible new technology is available to us!  One based in Yoga.  Whether you ever roll out a mat or do a downward dog in your life is irrelevant!!! Yoga is the science of unifying consciousness that heals and opens us up to abilities and solutions which we cannot access in the compartmentalized mind.  Now, contrary to the computer I used in the analogy.   The more advanced technology of mind is NOT more complicated!  It actually goes the other direction into an infinite simplicity... (exhale).  IT is no longer about accumulating more compartmentalized knowledge or skills.  It is a practice of presence.  Emptying yourself of all that information based knowledge and remaining in continual presence!  This ability to stay present qualifies us to be able to access this higher intelligence while we take action in our lives from from a place of knowing.  This requires trust.  Our culture teaches us to only trust the tried and true (That 'one right way' to proceed).  Yet, think of Nature again.  Starting with your body, how many processes are being carried out successfully right now in your body to maintain the homeostasis necessary to health? The most obvious of which would be things like heart beat, circulation, breathing, digestion, detoxification... as well as the micro functions of organelles like that of the ATP generating mitochondria in the cells of your body...?   It’s probably in the hundreds or thousands.


     Can you imagine the incredible multitasking ‘computing’ power that it requires? Can you imagine attempting, with your everyday consciousness to manage all these tasks simultaneously?  Of course you couldn't!  So what's carrying these tasks out?  Think about how many creatures are on the planet right now.  Each of these creatures with a similar mind boggling degree of detailed tasks being carried out within them.  Now think of all the countless organisms, plants, insects, microbes....on and on and on.  All simultaneously co-existing in an infinitely faceted inter-relationship with everything else that breathes the same air.  Each human being like another cell in the greater human body.  Each species of plant or animal like another organ in the greater body of Earth and all she is home to.  Think of the Cosmos... How many planets, civilizations, creatures, stars, galaxies, all dancing simultaneously in infinite complexity yet somehow coherent as one by the infinite space in which all is held and which transcends physical distance and size.  Just that I’m able to begin dabbling on the ledge where finite compartments meet their demise shows the capacity of the human mind to venture beyond the limitation of the old linear, objectifying, and fragmenting operating system we’ve become so accustomed to.  What does this means for our lives?... for our health?...for our environment?  For our culture?...


    Humans have proven to be the only species in the ecology of Earth that create an unbelievable disruption in the harmonious flow of nature.  And all living beings are now suffering because of it.  Yet we hold ourselves to be far superior than any other creature that walks this planet due to our capacities of self-reflection and intellect.  Yet something is terribly wrong.  We know this.  But have we identified it yet?  There’s a lot of fingers being pointed out there and many influential people touting that their diagnosis is the right one and that they found the real problem.  It’s the Government... No!  It’s the Illuminati... No! It’s Monsanto!... No!  It’s the Banks!  It’s blacks, It’s Gays, it’s Whites, it’s men, it’s money, it’s meat eaters, it’s chem trails, it’s technology, it’s military, it’s greed, it’s hate, on and on and on in a noisy and desperate clamor as the Titanic slowly sinks into the ocean.


     It’s NOT working!  But why?  The answer is simple... not complicated. How is it that the infinite complexity of all creation can be so simple?  The simplicity of waves crashing, a breeze blowing, a sunset, and storm, a heart beat, a breath even while each of those things can be described in great complex detail?  This is the glorious dichotomy of infinite oneness and and infinite multiplicity requiring each other in order to unfold...infinitely.  This is the flow of nature.  If humans are causing the incredible disruption in it all, there has to be some deep misconception at the root of our potentially superior and complex mind.  On the level of thought, before the count of one second even begins, there is choice.  And it is here where we reclaim our power.... our freedom.  We must address the faulty mental program that generates separation.


     Hopefully by now we can see that the dysfunction has grown to glaring proportions, no one element can be blamed, we are all continuously conspiring to perpetuate the dysfunctional world making practices we have grown accustomed to and self destruction seems imminent.  We have to wake up somehow!  The distractions of pop culture, consumerism, and media are not sufficing anymore.  The landfills are filling up... the resources are running out... The water shortage is a promise.  We MUST wake up!  But what does that mean?  There is a kind of hysteria... It seems almost normal to us now.  But we are frantically running to keep up with a race that is heading for a brick wall fast.  We’re all doing it.  So it seems normal.  But it is time to stop... Even as we go.  Though this sounds contradictory, it is really not.  If we have to pay our bills, get our kids to school,  find jobs, make money, care for each other, improve our world... We have to keep going.  But we don’t have to be frantic!  The frantic energy of our culture is really rooted at that fundamental level where core Dis-ease exists.  It’s even deeper than belief.  It’s the practice of being separate.  It’s the practice of denying the infinite nature of reality.  This is where science and faith marry each other.  At this core level, we can choose, with very good reason (science) to trust (faith) enough to sacrifice the drive towards all we have built up from the vantage point of being separate, and find an incredible peace that leads to the higher intelligence we need in order to bring harmony back into our lives and into our world.


    Of all the many little suffocating ‘mind bites’ that we picked up from our predecessors, one agreement that may keep us more stuck than any other sounds something like ‘there is only one right way.‘ This is the black-and-white,  either/or mentality.  We each have our mountain to climb, as ‘they’ say.  Yet, how are we supposed to bring peace and order into our lives when there is no black-and-white guide book?  It's like being a parent.  Your kid isn't born with a manual. Well this is what our religions have attempted to provide.  A 'right way' to get to conduct yourself.  And there have been all out wars and genocides on this point.  Science wants to know the truth, devoid of religious dogma and speculation, and therefore claims to be the only sound way to true results while ignoring the infinite nature of reality and obsessing with compartments.  Spiritual practices seem impractical and scientifically sound ones ignore the super-Natural.  Where do we go?  Who do we turn to?  What’s the ‘right’ way?  The last question is the perfect example of one of the old operating system’s outdated and linear programs.  As if entranced by the tick of the clock, it’s been hard to break our gaze away from the fragmented and linear mental overlay of these programs on an infinitely fractal, infinitely  interpretable, infinitely curious reality∞universe filled with infinite possibilities.  If, through the fundamental holistic logic of the evolved mind, we see that we are part of this infinite reality, woven into it’s very fabric, then the game changes from ‘finding the one right way to get there’ to discovering one of many right ways to proceed in life as a being of unwavering presence and trust right HERE! In other words there are infinite right ways for life to unfold.  And always better ways than you ever could have predicted.  So "how do I get out of the way?"  becomes the question to ask!  Simple answer, breathe deeply any time you feel inclined to contract (complain, fight, doubt) and you instantaneously activate the advanced dormant DNA/software of higher intelligence!  Simply by opting out of resistance to what is. 


    So instead of becoming paralyzed at the thought of one right way, and how many ways you can go wrong.  Perhaps consider that there are NO wrong ways in this expansive infinite reality of higher mind, and that you can celebrate every moment, every choice, every occurrence as a perfect part of your perfect unfolding path, no matter what, thereby accelerating your unique healing (Whole-ing) process by removing the mental blocks that seed frantic action and contribute the the destruction of Earth, which in turn makes you a living contribution to the healing of the entire planet.  Now... this "no wrong ways" business could easily be taken as a version of our all too familiar hippie-like adage "It's all good".  No!  Its not all good.  Lot's of things are bad! But what I'm trying to say to you is that when life proceeds differently than you had projected or expected, that instant we have a choice!  Do we 'marry' the old software AGAIN by cursing the circumstances, or immediately jump on celebration train of Life whose very evolution depends upon continuous and unexpected metamorphosis?   Doesn't the latter sound WAY more fun?  Have you ever thrown yourself into a situation you were "not ready for" and surprised yourself with what came out of you?  This is what I'm talking about!  If you had no plan... then how the hell did you know what to do?!  This is the higher mind.  And it can only be accessed in Presence.  Which is to say, you direct no energy to emotions of doubt, fear, and the like. 


      If we bring the practice of yoga asana into this (it is a yoga blog after all)... An example of this shift would be that in the old mental space we see a yoga posture as an exact form that we must adhere to (one right way).  When this is HIGHLY contradictory to the ethics of Yoga consciousness.  In the higher mind, we can see the dynamic fluidity of a form that speaks volumes even when it is still.  We see a posture that speaks...that breathes... even morphs... This requires us to be out of the compartmental mind and move into the living holistic mind which leaves infinite room for infinite possibilities.  The physical effect of this approach is that it creates more energy more relaxation, more strength, more sustainability, more pleasure, more space, I could go on and on.  But the point is, we have direct access to the field of infinite intelligence/possibilities when we remove the blockages that come from linear thinking.  It's not that children's brains can learn faster cause they're younger!  It's that they haven't practiced being so fundamentalist in their life.  There is only ONE way!  Or so we are taught.  Don't you remember how scary school was when you started to feel that pressure to adhere to the rules, color inside the lines, and fill out those little circle thingies on the multiple choice tests?  We all went through the meat grinder.  And yoga (healing) is the only way back to sanity! Back to Nature.  And I feel it behooves me to say yet again, Yoga is NOT stretching on a mat! It's Presence itself!!



      Let's wrap this up so you can go play! ;)  We can't control the world outside of us very dependably.  But we can take the reigns of our story telling (which is essentially our experience of life itself) ALL the time!  If this becomes the daily practice, we begin to breathe deep all day long.  Which is to say live in ease... which is to say, heal dis-ease... Our society has drilled into us that if we want to be successful in life, we must learn the right way.  We must see and recognize that this has been beaten into us.  It takes time to notice the tendency to complain, to argue, to regret, etc. because of this deep seated belief in one right way. And it takes time to practice a different choice.  But it really is not hard at all!  Once you see the science behind how our thinking can create either/or stress vs. the expanded thought which allows infinite possibilities, we are empowered to proceed with perhaps the most important rehabilitation of all!  The rehabilitation from the butterfly staying as a caterpillar, to the butterfly becoming a butterfly!  That's you baby!  Be the butterfly... ditch the limited caterpillar programs and fly!